ps....

DAVID IS BACK!!!!

what an exciting way to bring in the new year!!!!

Starting Life.... for real this time.

Its been a long hard year. When I look back and really think about it, I hate the person I was in 2009. I made so many mistakes, some of which can never be fully reversed. I hurt the people I love and let them down countless times. I thought I was doing what was good for ME, but I was wrong. I was being selfish and stupid. Not one thing that I did "for myself" benefitted me or anyone else for that matter. One thing that I can say is that I learned alot about myself, about love, and life.
In this past year, I learned that I can be who God intended for me to be if I am truely seeking after him. This doesnt mean I just go to church and put on a happy Jesus freak face and pretend that I am doing well. It means I earnestly seek after him, I read my bible and pray daily and dig deeper than just the surface of being a "christian." I live my life as though Christ himself was physically walking along side me. I listen to the still small voice that discerns right from wrong. Above all, I love with unconditional love to God, to my family, my friends, and even those who have wronged me.
Love is a big word. It is hard to grasp the full meaning of the word when it is just a word. You have to see it in action. After all, love is a verb. It isnt just a discription or a feeling, its something you have to DO. This year the word love to me was taken very lightly. It was something that I could use with anyone and not really understand what I was saying. I got to see love in action when I went to Alaska to visit David's family. The love that they carry is so amazing, it can only be from God. It is unconditional, like no matter what I did or anyone else did they had this pationate love for them. They wanted what was best for me and for others. Not only did I get a taste of how God can love through others but I got to feel the intensity of direct love from my heavenly father. At the church I attended for the month and a half the holy spirit was so welcome and was invited to every service. This was something I had not experienced before. I would go to a service and just feel the love of God, it felt as it was literally breathed into my heart. This brought back a passion for life and I began to take back control of mine, what satan had destroyed God began to rebuild.
Life is something I was just living, dragging on day after day. I was bitter and cold until love brought back life. I am not focused on things of this world, like clothes, money, and looks.. those things literallly mean nothing to me. I found what is most important to me. God, love,family, friends. I know what road of life I want to head down and I know how to get there now. I know how to fight my own battles and how to stay strong in hardships without failing. I love life. I will be brave and I will do what is right.

Georgia

one boring lonely night in georgia, as usual.

Im in Georgia visiting my husband. I got here a month and one week ago for his graduation from basic training. Im coming home on Monday. Its going to be a long long drive but well worth it to see my family. Im going to miss David. He has to stay here in Fort Benning to A. wait a month to start RIP or B. go to world wide hold over to get his duty station. It may be a month or two who knows.. but it will be good for both of us to focus on things we need to do, for him, training, for me, school.

LDS Dance! :)

Oh boi! What a night! I went to an LDS dance tonight. bahaha. I wore black dress pants and they made me wear an icky black skirt. haha. i felt way lame but I had alot of fun anyway. :) I got to help cut the edges off of pictures, play with balloons and I even got in a dance or two.

After taking weirdo pictures.

oh my! what a night!

me being weird!

weirdo!

Babysitting!

My baby sister is almost 5 whole months old in two days! She is freaking adorable and I love her! Tonight I got to babysit her and we took alot of really cute pictures! I am sure going to miss her growing up when I move away! :( but i will get to see videos and pictures. :)

Compulisive Buyer with no money!

Okay so since we last talked, i have been really lazy and boring and I sit at home and do nothing or I go to redbox and get movies to consume my endless days.

Also since Red box happens to be attatched to a Maverick store, I go in and compulsivley buy things!!! Even though I am poor.

My Vitamin Energy drink. I got it cause it remindedme of David. (LAMO)

Valentines Day Cards. cause I have no valentine to be with and they were only $2.45 at Fred Meyer. So be expecting one in the mail my lovely friends. (and David, haha he will probably get push ups)

Pita Chips T-Shirt!!

Okay so I am leaving for Georgia in 24 days!! I got my essential body stuff like shampoo and conditioner and body wash, stuff like that. I got my dress for the ceremony and also I got my hair cut and colored. I am soo excited. My friend Rose, from Washington made me the coolest shirt ever. It is based on a song we sang on our missions trip in New York, summer 2008. We changed the lyrics and it became our inside joke. So I am just keeping busy busy busy while waiting for the big date!

I get a little bit crazy when I am bored.

I LOVE MY PITA CHIPS SHIRT!!

Thumbs up to Rose!!

The back.

The front.